Exclusive - Bigg Boss Malayalam 4's Daisy David: I don't deserve this online abuse; regret my tone but didn't intend to hurt anyone

Fashion photographer Daisy David left everyone stunned with her performance in Bigg Boss Malayalam 4. Albeit being a part of some controversial moments, she was unarguably one of the strongest contenders in the game so far. However, her eviction had left the viewers surprised. Recently, in an exclusive chat with ETimes TV, Daisy opened up about her game, facing cyber bullying, and more...

I never expected this quick eviction. But, I had a gut feeling about this. I am unhappy, I deserve to be there a little longer. However, the viewers take the final call.

But I am overwhelmed with the love viewers have showered upon me. I was a completely new face to the telly audience. I was always behind the camera and was only known through by my pictures. Yet, people loved me, saved me from four nominations and I am still receiving messages from people appreciating my game. They also wish to see me back in the game. I am happy with the response.

I entered the show with the goal to inspire women like me, I think I have done that. I raised my voice whenever a woman was disrespected in the house, be it when talking about 'Kulasthree' or my undergarments were 'showcased'. If I had more time, I’d have done better.

Soon after getting evicted from the house, I thought I’ll go out, eat well and relax. But honestly, I’m unable to complete a meal thinking whether my inmates had eaten or not. Getting back to normal life feels good, but I am still in the hangover. I miss the BB house.

Mostly, I miss our morning routine. Every morning, I, Akhil, and Sooraj would have a glass of tea, sit on the couch in the garden area. We may not talk but we enjoyed each other’s company. I miss that so badly now.

Before entering the show, just like everyone I also thought that the show was scripted. But I have realized it is not. However, I am happy to be a part of this season as we had a great mix of contestants. It feels like the Malayali audiences have already accepted the LGBTQ+ community and accepted them as every other individual.

I can't thank the show enough for giving a big platform for a photographer like me. I also hope the audience is enjoying 'good masala' out of the generation gap and lifestyle changes. I can clearly say that the show is never scripted, well it is the 'over dramatic' acts of some people that gives such a feel to the audience.

I feel blessed to get such a bond inside the house. We used to enact a love track inside the house but we were great friends. I had the space to say anything to Sooraj. He had genuine concern for me that he would come and criticize me for some of my acts. Not many people in the house would do that.

When I was about to go to that post box during the nomination, I had seen that fear in Sooraj's eyes. So, I deliberately avoided him while saying goodbye. I knew that he would be sad, but never thought he would be this heartbroken. To see him cry was so tough for me. I am at least relieved that Akhil is there to support him now.

Soon after my exit, I am facing severe online abuse for one of my statements in the house. During the incident in which Blesslee 'showcased' my undergarments to everyone, I questioned him whether he would do the same to his mother and sister. I never intended to disrespect them in any way. Maybe, my tone was wrong. But, I apologized to him on the same day.

But, every one is abusing me and my family for that on social media. Neither myself nor my family deserve this. What did my family do? I’m totally disappointed by the way some people have received it and shamed me on social media. Till now, I am not sure whether they are genuine audience or a part of any smear campaign. I was mentally down during the initial days reading all these, but now I am getting better. Bring it on! I will surely respond to all of these legally soon.

Yet another criticism I have been receiving is about my smoking habit. I was not trying to hide it or was I image-conscious. Firstly, I didn't want my mother to know it through national television. So, I avoided creating content with that. Secondly, I didn't want to set any bad example for anyone who looks up to me as their inspiration.

One thing I learned about myself is that there is something wrong with my tone. I realised that the way I convey certain things has hurt people. So, I have decided to take control of my tone. The only thing I regret in my stint is the words I have used against housemates and the tone in which I conveyed to them.

If at all I get a chance to make a re-entry, I will surely take it. As I have learned the game well now, I can surely play it well. I will make sure to enter after unlearning some shortcomings I saw in myself.

I will concentrate more on my career now. I understand that the limelight won't last much so I will have to make use of it. I will not sit and wail because certain people are pouring negativity. I shall continue to inspire and motivate people in all possible ways.